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Woah ! its been more than 15days since my last post ! , well i have a very genuine reason for it , the last 15days have been one heck of a time for me , had been in blazes and bliss of my life , yes two contradictory feelings. The first few days of these 15days was almost killed with the fear of losing this Angel of my life for not having paid much attention to his emotions due to a stupid logic where i believed ignoring a few would make us feel better..damn ! wel wel wel but then i got him back again , once again ,by some miracle what so ever , and then again almost got my heart burnt to ashes while get myself into the flames of something i really don’t wanna talk about but it was for him that i didn’t mind the suffering yet just couldn’t take it anymore , wanted him to love me, to care for me ,wanted to make him feel better ,not ruin his peace of mind and mine as well, so had to put an end to it somehow..finally seems like it has all ceased for good.However ,after having survived with all the many ‘death at my doorstep’ kinda circumstances, I am finally at peace with him since a couple of days now Alhamdullilah .Wish the previous statement is away from all the hex and jinx in this world,Aameen Aameen..
Now, this enduringly abounding love for him has really changed my life more than anything , but truly ,words are just not expressive enough for me to unambiguously elucidate on the sensations of pure ecstasy that is conquering my heart , mind and soul these days all due to him my love. More Truly , i just feel like i’ve gone through some reincarnation from the time he stepped into my heart- into my life- made a new world for me-gave hope - gave me dreams - Gosh i'm ever ,forever Grateful to God n him .
He might just not understand what he means to me, how much i value ,cherish and learn from every infinitesimal thing he says or does,the inspiration he gives me , the endeavouring desire he ignited to amend myself to persistently be what he wants me to be , the way he purifies me spiritually and much much more , he might just not understand all this since these are the things that really needs tremendous depth of understanding which might be hard for someone miles and miles away to have for someone like me who just has to struggle my way through words to express myself in the right manner to him, and sometimes this struggle messes up the things i really want to express -this is actually a very worse situation so no loling allowed..
Well , but anyhow here i am , living through the best moments of my life , falling in love with him really crazily , Te Amo Darling, be it spanish, english or any language , but the language of the heart is what needs to be in sync, and very amazingly he and i feel each other really well ,my God the rush , the warmth and all those lovely feelings he gives me even without being beside me is really wonderful ,its just a mystery that can never unraveled about how do our hearts feel n understand each other so much though we cant touch or see or hear eachother, its just 'wow' to us ! love it ! love him to d core ! :) , anyhow i am now getting myself to focus on the other side of my life where there is alot of attention needed , hah studying , his love and care has given me some really good boosting energy that can keep me going for now but na i am really greedy when it comes to his love so lets see how the next few days when i am away frm my blog,and him [ though m gonna try to spend a little time chatting every night with him InshaAllah] goes on to be with him n my studies in the long run J will be back really soon InshaAllah :)
